Sigh........

Ok, so I'm about to turn 30. ................................... Did I just say 30? I meant to say 29!! Ok that was a little fib! Yes, I'm trying to use humor as a diversion. God is trying to teach me that this is one thing in my life I CANNOT control. The fact is...I'm about to turn 30 on Saturday. I'll be honest...I was beginning to feel a little freaked out. Like..."oh crap when did I pass 25?" freaked out. "I still feel like I'm 25!...I can't be turning 30 already!"............. Wait a minute.........I did recently purchase that sunhat at the beach, because the sun was "just to strong"...and oh, I've recently acquired a taste for coleslaw and fried apples...and if that wasn't enough...I've been introduced to the first few wonderfully stunning "lines" around my eyes........ Hmmm...maybe I just need some extra Z's?.....ooooooor.....maybe I am turning 30! As I roll my eyes and realize that I'm getting on my own nerves, I quickly tell myself... ...how silly! I love my life...whether I'm 20, 30, 40, however many the years...and I start to think about all the wonderful gifts God has given me. Even while recalling some of the most incredible moments of my life...it doesn't take long for me to realize that one fear still remains. "If the past 30 years have gone by this fast...how fast will the next 30 go by? How will I ever slow them down?" That is my fear...that is my only worry. Please God, slow down the next 30. I don't want to miss a blink. As I look back over the past few years, my life has been filled with nothing but good things. Everything I've always wanted, God has graciously given me. I'm not referring to materialistic "things". I'm speaking of something else entirely. Something that can only come from one place... I have contentment. I have peace. I have God. I've been given more than I could have ever hoped for, ever dreamed of, ever wanted. He's given me so much. He's given me his love, his forgiveness, his grace. What more could I ask for? Only one thing comes to mind... God...you've spent the last 30 years of my life giving to me...may the next 30, be about me giving to you. My heart is full of gratefulness.